Its a good thing I have this in my notes..
hi langga :> i just want you to know that i love you so much.. even when i am in a terrible mood or nagiinarte and dont wanna talk to you, i love you. and during those moments, i want nothing but hugs and kisses from you. thank you for being so patient and understanding. :) i know im not the perfect lover, sweetheart or girlfriend for you… but I LOVE YOU. and it’s all that i could give. my heart. Sometimes i wonder if that time will come… that day… that day that we’d be together and not think about our parting time the moment we wake up… because when the night comes, we will always be next to each other. always… kahit na malamig o madilim, di ako matatakot kasi katabi kita at naka-hug ka sakin. Pag gising ko, mukha mong maganda ang unang bubungad sakin. Id wait for that day langga… id wait… because you have always been worth it. its true. :> and im thankful for God bless me with the best gift every single day, your love. <3 thank you langga… :*
Why so down euge?
Cheer up! someday you’ll be great and successful (but when?! when I’m 40? 50?) Life is hard euge. You have to strive really hard until you reach your goal, plans, dreams, etc. Yeah yeah I get your point. I’m just sad, scared, frustrated, degraded all mixed up. I’m sad of what I am right now. I feel like I’m a big failure on all aspects. I’m scared of my life in the future if I can’t make my plans come true. I feel so frustrated and degraded right now being a dentist. I don’t make enough money for myself. And of course, I’m ashamed to borrow money from my parents if I need some. It’s like all my pride for achieving this profession is gone. My life sucks right now. I hope and pray that even if all things fail, you won’t leave me behind.. :(( but still, all I can do is to believe and try my best to achieve OUR dreams. :) (I feel better now after writing this all down.)
aww.. always.. :”>
“I belong with you, you belong with me, you’re my sweetheart.”
GREAT LOVE: It’s when you shed tears yet you still care; it’s when you’re ignored yet you still long; it’s when he begins to love another yet you still smile and say “I’m happy for you.”
“In Life relationships are not always planned, but when the Relationship is REAL, it becomes a plan for life and a reason for living.”
I don’t know when was the last time this happened. I cried until I get to sleep and when I woke up I read a text message and cried again.. What a big crybaby I am.. I’m sorry.. I really can’t help it, tears just keep on falling.. Hope my eyes won’t swell and turn red.. :(
What’s happening? :((
“Are you still happy? Do you think we’re working out? Are you willing to work things out? What’s on your mind? Do you really love me? Do you really care? Are WE falling apart?”
Ang sakit, matanong ng ganyan.. sa lahat ng naging problema natin.. halos lahat ako may kasalanan.. pero ayos lang sa akin un.. I’m really sorry.. I’m sorry I’ve always lacked something.. I don’t know.. Effort maybe? Care? Sweetness? What else? Love? But I don’t know I’m already all out.. I’m trying all that I can do, ideas, gifts, great memories, love, etc.. It seems like you just can’t see beauty and happiness in it..:(( You always think about the sad part, the lonely ones.. You know, I’m always happy being around you, even if you’re not in a good mood.. I’ve always cared for you right from the start when we became friends then lovers.. But as I said I won’t give up, not until you tell me to stop.. I’m sorry for all that I’ve done.. I’m sorry for saying that I want to die.. I just want you to know that I’d die for you.. I love you langga.. I hope we’ll be able to overcome these problems.. I’m sorry for giving you such headaches, for staying with me here in manila, for being able to carry those burdens.. I thank you.. I won’t let go unless you let go first and leave..:(( I’m with you as long as I’m alive and in your heart.. I love you.. :(( Hope you’re okay.. I’m sorry.. :(